Let him (or her) go

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I am a very private person. I haven’t always been this way, I just think that the older I get, the more I like my personal life to be kept to myself. I am in a very happy relationship that has been going on for almost 4 years now. I never knew what love really was until I met my boyfriend. He is the most understanding and sweetest man out there, I am very lucky to have him.

However, it took me a long time to find him. I went through a lot when I was younger…especially during my later teens. Many people don’t know too much about my life, except my close friends, obviously. But, I did go through a tough time where I was very naive, I was manipulated in many ways and I honestly thought there would be no way out. I am not going to name names or get into details because the people closest to me know all about it and quite honestly, I have been over it for a long time now. All I can really say is that I was young and I hung on to every word that this guy would say…I believed the things he said to me and I thought we would be together, which clearly didn’t happen. It took me almost 4 years to get out of this situation…I don’t know what it was that kept me holding on or going back, but it was just a never ending thing. It did finally end, clearly, when I met my boyfriend and I have never looked back. I truly never understood the saying “good things come to those who wait” until I met him.

The reason I am writing this post though, is due to the fact that this guy, who only provided me with bad memories, has been constantly on my brain. I don’t know why, there is no reason for him to be. I don’t talk to him and I haven’t seen him in over 4 years. My best friend and I have talked about this, and came up with reasons, but I am still not satisfied. I am confused how my brain can be thinking about memories about a person who only provided me with negativity. I don’t understand how after so many years, I can go back to thinking about it.

I am just in that situation right now and I thought I would share it with everyone. Like I said, I am very private, so to even open up a little bit about this, is a huge deal for me. I am in no way hurting or upset because of this, I am just confused how the brain can work in so many weird ways. I am happy to say that I have fully moved on and living a happy life, so I don’t want anyone else to think differently. I just wanted to share a little experience of mine and see if anyone else can relate to this.

Please share if you have ever been in a situation like this!

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